Saturday, June 06, 2009
its seems that i'm so busy with my stuff. ahh? haha.
anyway. for a fresh start, fresh moment, fresh life.. i will carry on with this job without
hesitating.
i really appreciate God who change my life once again. xD Nothing Is Impossible, amen? AMEN!! given a second thought, i really want to lead as christianity life throughout my last day. but my mother is nagging all the way last night.. as i told her that i'm going church with my 'friend'
i know all the while, my mother will objected me, if i would voice out to her and say, i will be going church together with my aunt... she will definitely skin me alive.. as my mother dislike me to go over to my granny place.. sigh.. got some misunderstanding, i guess. But i sincerely wish that my mother can let go this hatred towards my granny family. all the while, i felt insecured whenever i had to go to my granny place after work, secretly behind my mother's back.. as she really disallow me to.. sighhh...
but, she said this to me last night when i brought this topic up, u already prayed to goddess mercy and yet u still going to church??!! u know that u will confuse urself by going to church as u don't know which god u r going to trust!! i was like... disappointed... i sincerely wish that i can go to church with my aunt. but how?? why she must control me when i made up my decision to become christian... and yet she forbid me. sighh.. what if. lets put in this way.. if, i would marry a christian guy, will she object me??
i sincerely wish that my mother will agree my decision and not to control me to whatever god i'm praying.. as i only believe in him, which is God, nothing can change me, when i made this decision. hope that God will help me...
lost without you;
10:16 PM
