Saturday, October 24, 2009
its a brand new day today.. as my mind kept on flashing back to the past ..
when i was working in O.C.S (Overseas Courier Services)
few months back, i was really contented to talk to a guy which he was very "shy or quiet" though...
but he gave me a lot of wonderful memories like when asking him out for lunch tgt with my colleagues. =)
and sharing my problems with him.. and he also shared with me abt his problems too...
but now... its like he and i are drifted apart as we have no much common topic to talk to.. sometimes i can sense that
he was looking at my direction.. but i chose to pretend to look another corner which he was looking at. Sighh,.. all i thought
of now was... Miserable... Happy at the outer side, but feeling upset in the inner side...
i still rmb the past two days... which is on wednesday, (21/10) he disturbed me when i was resting inside the toilet as i just came back from seeing company doctor at tanjong pagar. Out of sudden, i heard someone who knocks at the toilet door so loudly, all i thought of was the cleaner aunty is waiting impatiently as she wants to wash the toilet... so i quickly washed my hand and opened the door...
to my suprise, there's nobody.. so i just said silently to myself.. perhaps somebody is playing prank again... before i can walk pass the pantry... and 'he' walked out from the pantry as well while holding a cup of water... i began curious.. i asked him.. (are u the one who knocked the door?) he said nope.. when he nearly wanted to laugh... i was like... ding ding!! i have the answer.. the answer is "YOU" haha!! =) my mind was thinking that. how i wish he can disturb me everyday.. and at least i can feel contented with his disturbance.. =) that was the funniest thing which i nv come across..
and ytd, there's a newcomer who came in.... so my senior taught her some data entry and so far she can catch a bit of that skills. =) but the moment when the newcomer lady asked me about some strange pop up link which she nvr come across.. and i guide her with a smile.. and i just turning to that guy direction.. so he looked at me in a very stern manner.. but i didnt know what's wrong was that... sighh
after a few hours.. i felt bored.. so i walked to the pantry and ate some sunflower seeds which my female colleague gave me.. after that i had a short conversation with my sign language colleague.. suddenly the guy walked out from the toilet.. all i know was.. i looked down while holding my cup as i thought that he will pass the pantry.. but to my suprise again, he didnt.. he stood there for some time.. so i brought up my courage and asked him. do u want to have this nuts?? he said.. nooooo.... i asked him.. why not?? because u dislike to munch it?? he said.. no lahh.. and that is gua zi... i said.. gua zi?? he said.. yes.. gua zi lai de.. .. and i asked him again... kat said that u want to tag along to the science centre to see a human internal body?? he said.. nooooo..
at least i know that he will talk to me.. =)) but my colleague told me that she noticed him that he likes to look at me when i walked passed him..
i dunno what is that feeling like when i saw him chatting with other colleagues with so many topics... but to me... there's no common topic.. =( is it because i'm not fated to have him as my good friend to share my sorrows with?? sighh... i really needs God help as i really want to share the same common topic like others who can bring joy.. =) hopefully this day will come =))
lost without you;
8:17 PM
